So two days ago, I accepted an invitation to be an Admin for a page of Facebook called "Let's talk about
Miscarriage". For two days I have been trying to help people who have gone through miscarriages, and it makes me feel so horrible inside but so happy at the same time. I talked to a 21 year old today who lost her baby when she was 6 months along and she just wanted a baby so badly that she keeps having unprotected sex with her boyfriend who doesn't want kids right now. I understood her need to fill that void we all have, that one we feel like can go away with the birth of a child. But I couldn't help but be upset with
this women tricking her boyfriend into a baby he didn't want. Not to mention all the STD's she could be exposing herself to by having unprotected sex for 4 years.
Then I realized who am I to judge
this women. I tried for months to get pregnant, got pregnant, had a miscarriage and spent more months trying to get pregnant again to fill that void. It's a horrible void. Like it could swallow you whole and leave no trace of the person you were before your loss.
For mother's day, my mom and son bought me a necklace that says "A piece of my heart is in heaven" with what would have been my daughter's birthstone on it. They also bought me a family ring, that has my birthstone, what would have been my daughter's and my son. It's a beautiful ring and it means so much to me that my mom remembered when my due date was. It's amazing to me that she thought to add my daughter to it. Mother's day can be so hard on all of us, but my mom and son made mine a little easier.
